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a: rant. [11 Apr 2005|05:39pm]
[ mood | moody ]

things that are annoying me right now:

*it's unbearably hot and this does not suit my mood. i want rain please.
*my lack of good music because of soulseek being gay and not letting me download
*my lack of motivation
*my obsession with clothes
*the fact that i become obsessed too easily.
*the fact that i become bored too easily

i am bored.

i might post some shit pictures in a bit. i feel like being a total sadist. or is it maschoist? i always forget which one is which...anyway. no one i bet reads this lol i know lucretia will. and i don't think i particurly want anyone to read it..much. i mean...gah. ok i know *exactly* why im writing in this journal. because the majority of my friends on the other one are emotionally retarded and will not engage in intelligent talks or talks of any merit what so ever. neeeer </nastyness>

what can i do.

i feel like i regret something but im not sure what it is.

i cant even blame this on PMT, I had my period last week. hmmmms.

1 blood letter bleed me dry

[10 Jul 2004|01:48pm]

give thebloodangel more *HUGS*

Get hugs of your own
bleed me dry

[10 Jul 2004|01:31pm]
[ mood | grumpy ]

Oi vey, I just sent Luci an e-mail. She used to be my best friend but now as she's going to Spain for summer which to quote 'will be the best time of my life...AGAIN' :\ I'm not wanted. I haven't spoken to her in about 2 weeks, she never phones me anymore nor does she even talk to me online. Oh yeah, she did...to ask if I wanted to buy her old monitor off her and when I told her I'm getting a flatscreen she went 'rah' and went offline. Yeah - some good friend I am. But I like her and I don't want to lose her friendship. We would be out right now, shopping, cinema or just hanging out but no, I'm here, on the internet, wasting my time trying to save our friendship. Here's the e-mail I sent her:
So, I haven't talked to you in so long, is that because now you're going to Spain you feel you don't need to bother with me anymore? Because that's what it feels like. You never phone me anymore and I hesistate to text you or phone you because I don't know whether you want to hear from me or not. Whenever you're online, you either don't talk to me or want to talk to me because you're having problems with your computer or whatnot. It's not nice to feel like your not wanted anymore, I don't know what I have done to feel like this, I really don't. I consider you a good friend, but am I considered a good one back? Please e-mail me back or something even if it is to tell me to fuck off for whatever reason. =(



Whatever. And so I blew Nigel off last night >0. Argh, I'm so confused. Jon...Nigel...Jon...Nigel...WAS DAS FICK! *screams*. Nigel wanted to do something today but I turned him down and he seemed a bit pissed off at that or something but uh...I just don't know. I'm confused. I no longer get the butterfly thingies when I talk to him and he annoys the fuck out of me sometimes and it's just...BLAH.

Help me.

bleed me dry

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